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Wednesday, October 6, 2010

Ac-Cent-Tchu-Ate the Positive #52 -- 10/6/10

I found myself complaining to myself about how much money I’d just spent at the grocery store tonight. Then I caught myself and realized how lucky I am that I am able to go to the grocery store and that I can afford to buy food for myself. It suddenly dropped everything into clear perspective and showed me once again that I can choose how I look at things at any given moment and find the positive or the negative in it. It just takes a moment of “the glad game”, as Pollyanna calls it in the famous book, to make many things that I might grumble about much a much happier prospect. :)

I’m no Pollyanna. I can’t always find the good in things, and quite often I wallow in my unhappy. During bad bouts of Depression with a capital D (ah Depression…such a colossal pain in my ass!), I sometimes simply (er, well no, complexly I guess) can’t find a way out of the sub-basement of my serotonin messy mind …nor can I find my way to gratitude when it gets really dark in here.

But MOST of the time, I CAN, if I remember to, make a choice about how I’m viewing a situation, which often leads me to find a way to be thankful for some aspect of it, or to have compassion for some participant in it (yes, even myself) and that can make all the difference in how it affects me. I like that I got that in a really concrete way tonight. I really, really like that.

Tonight I sing my gratitudes for:

1) Being able to buy groceries.

2) The clarity that brought me.

3) Trader Joe’s really does rock my socks.

4) Feeling beautiful for moments here and there. This sentence is not a fishing expedition. It is an acknowledgement of self. I lost sight of my own beauty somewhere and I’m starting to catch glimpses of it out of the corner of my spirit again. Internal and external beauty. It is nice to find in myself again.

5) Chatting with Holly tonight.

So much beauty in the world if you remember to notice it!

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